Away

What a weird day. I fasted day before yesterday. I fasted yesterday. Some things went very wrong. I had forgotten I was fasting. I’m so done with those lot, the neighbours man. I forgot completely, but hopefully I am forgiven. I fell asleep later, and woke up at 9 o’clock. Weird. Ruined my fast breaking time, stayed up late and slept late. Woke up at 9 o’clock today aswell. Missed fajr, made up Eid prayer at some far away Shivajinagar masjid that does a late late prayer. Barely made it. Thank God.

Weird. Went to a mall, looked at clothes, cause I had nothing to do. Came home, did nothing, tried to watch something, eat mangoes, and did nothing. What a sad day. Usually I meet so many people on Eid, so many messages I send out, do a few calls. But I was tired. Didn’t wanna do any of that, so I barely did that. I did in the end forward a few messages. Cool. I did finally understand what it means to spend an Eid away from home. I understand how so many people feel now I think. Up until now, even if I didn’t necessarily have my family around me on Eid, I did have people I knew, places I knew, and people to go to. This was the first time, that wasn’t the case. I did have people I could perhaps meet, but they aren’t immediately anything.

So it was an interesting experience.. all these things combined took all the fun out of Eid, and for me I could live with that, but I know its a religious obligation to enjoy this festival. Its one of the two we have, and if I didn’t I probably was sinning or losing out on a lot of reward maybe. How sad. That did get to me. But I prayed Zuhr, and things turned out okay after that. Had a light lunch. Going to a dinner. It all works out. May Allah make it easy on people who don’t have even this.